The First Day of Kindergarten...and The Blues

With a kiss, a hug and a "bye mom" she let go of my hand and walked

away from me and toward her future... I watched her walk away with
a smile on her face, happiness in her little heart and a promise of knowledge,
excitement and fun. I however, walked away feeling lonely, a having a heart
that was broken and a promise that this is letting her grow and do great things.

Just for the record, I'll have you know that I haven't written a poem since high school. I guess all these years I had nothing emotionally wrong with me that left me to be expressive about. That is truly the only time I write poetry... go figure. LOL

(In case your wondering its a schuletute, a school cone filled with candy and school supplies, ever German child get's one before they head off to school)

To say I was a bit aprehensive about dropping her off in a big school where there are more kids than adults was a bit of an understatement. My mantra today is; "she'll be fine... you've gotta let her go... if you feel this bad now what are you gonna do when she goes off to college or *gulp* get's married some day". Yes, that is my mantra and I'm sticking to it. This is one of the hardest things I've had to do since... well... she was six months old. *sigh* I don't want to believe she is growing up and becoming less dependent upon me and more of a independent, self assured, mini version of my old self. The days of sleeping in and sitting on the couch sharing a bowl of cereal are over... bring on the "Kindergarten Blues". I think I wouldn't be taking this as hard if I had something else to distract me. Truth is, I guess I sorta expected we would have another child for me to take care of by the time this all came along, guess life thought differently.


On the other hand, I remember kindergarten and all its glory. I am excited to see her grow and learn new and creative things. Hearing about her spending days making crafts and how she made it all the way across the monkey bar's one day. I'm just a little more sad than I expected, at least for the rest of the week... or two. I chalk it up to being a good mom... I wouldn't be a good mom if I didn't miss my baby and be jealous of the person who gets to spend all day with her. Because I've only held that title for the last 5 years... lol.

Slow week, Not so easy...

Its Friday and I can say this… officially. Its been a SLOW week! And Ive been busy! How annoying is that? Funny though, I can’t remember what Ive done. I know I feel exhausted and this weekend is not gonna let up at all. Im just glad I got all the laundry done, which really says nothing at all because Im sure Im gonna have a shit ton to do before leaving on Wednesday. :P

Today was good, yet annoying. I had a play-date kid thingy to go to, it was set up by one of the spouses in squadron. She has a side business of bounce houses and bouncy slides and stuff and she set that up for the kids, which was awesome and ordered us all pizza’s at only 2 bucks a pop. It was all good until the munchkin got a bit overwhelmed. She doesn’t do too good in big crowds, especially big crowds of other kids. So yeah not the most fun when you have a whiney, bratty, clingy kid stuck to you crying and pestering you every 5 seconds. That was the annoying part.

Other than that not too much going on today. Her school progress is going well, we do workbook stuff, flashcards, color, read in English and at least one of these languages; Spanish, French, Japanese, German, or Portuguese everyday. And Tuesday I have started to adopt sign language as another tool in her education. Im definitely flexing my geek muscles. The workbooks usually go over her thinking skills, matching, colors, letters, writing her name, shapes, time, and math. Yes, even math… Ive started her on simple addition and subtraction. And I feel good about it, shes growing and the progress improves with each day. Reading is become effortless shes recognizes simple words like Go, To, At, The…etc. I feel very accomplished when it comes to the amount of time and effort I’m putting in considering the results.

Anyway… up next for tomorrow is a cook out and pool time with friends. Saturday its the squadron “Easter Egg Hunt” and brunch. And Sunday I’ll be cooking for that thing they call Easter lol! Funny how we don’t really celebrate it for its intended purpose but I will still take it as an excuse to cook for the people I like. LOL.

Oh and just one more thing, I wish people would stop randomly asking me to allow them to follow me on twitter, its totally annoying! We have nothing in common! Why would I want to accept you, so you can just lurk about my tweets?!?