Around and around we go...

I went to the doc in Mobile yesterday and met with my RE-RN. We did our usual baseline ultrasound and she gave me a new Rx for more Letrozol (Femara) this time I am taking 4 pills a day for the next 5 days at 2.5mg each... so now we are up to 10 mg a day. That is A-LOT of emotional/girly/psycho-craziness going on LOL! Actually I don't feel any different at all, just yet. I took my first pills last night and just feel real emotional today (basically I've been crying at everything) it also doesn't help that the deadline for hubby's deployment is nearing and that's all I can think about lately. I am trying to stay "stress free" but if you know me... that is impossible! So I pascify myself with watching Dr. Quinn Medicine Woman (Yes! Don't judge LOL!) and pickle sandwiches. (It's the pills I SWEAR!) We are trying our usual way this month, we've just increased the dosage, since last month I took 5mg for 8 days and only came up with one follie. If this doesn't work we will be trying our first IUI next month. Hubby also has to have another analysis just to make sure everything on his end is still working out ok too. And pending the results of that we might get to try IUI this month. So that's it for now... I got back to Mobile on Monday the 5th. I shall know more by then and update after my appointment. In the mean time... "fingers crossed" as usual.


P.S I have just discovered the "bird and the bee" commerical video's and they are hilarious... they are EXACTLY what most infertile couples go through! Sooo funny! Check them out on youtube! Hilarious! This one... is my fav. "I hate her uterus!" LMAO!

Book Review: Cookie Dough or Die by: Virginia Lowell

Olivia Greyson is the proud owner of The Gingerbread House, a quaint shop that specializes in all things cookie, and her best friend, Maddie, is her sidekick, baking up scrumptious treats for their cookie-themed parties. But now they must take a break from baking and turn their attention to re-creating a recipe for murder...

No one is more shocked than Olivia when prominent business owner Clarisse Chamberlain is found dead. It was Clarisse who encouraged Olivia to open The Gingerbread House and she was one of her best customers. The sheriff is ready to call the case an accident, but Olivia's convinced there's a murder to solve.

Then word spreads that Clarisse left Olivia a large sum of money, along with a collection of valuable antique cookie cutters. Suddenly, Olivia is the prime suspect, and when the local postman falls ill after sampling one of their cookies, all eyes are on The Gingerbread House. If the cookie-loving duo doesn't find the real killer, their reputation and quite possibly their lives will be battered for good.

I really hate to give a bad review... that's why I'm not... I just really think it was me this time and not the book. I just couldn't get into the plot and the characters. I will have to pick it up and re-read it at a later date... so... this is more like a "book break-up" ;)

Dear Cookie Dough or Die,

I sincerely regret to inform you, that I am finished reading you (for now). It is just not working out between us and to be truthful... I'm just not that in to you. Fortunately it is not your fault... this time it's all me. Don't worry... I'm sure I will pick you up again and re-read you at some point.

Sincerely,

Jess ;)

College, Infertility and Christmas Crafts!

I compltely understand now why people do no go to college! They make it impossible to pay for! Holy craaaaaaaaap! I am just so compeltely frustrated with begging the government to pay for my classes... I haven't even started a class yet and college is a big pain in the rear! I hope this is all worth it in the end... that's all I can say LOL! Seriously though... I am using Federal Student Aid for the first time annnnnnd MYCAA for the first time... I think they are both confused at the fact that I am trying to use both... but hey, can you blame me? It's FREE money! Just sitting there! Waiting for me to use it... but, they don't make it easy to get. I feel like I have jumped through every hoop possible in order to get the money. I have played phone tag with financial advisers and email'ed to death military assistance specialists. And all I can say is... what a mess! I hope to god this all gets straitened out before my class starts NEXT MONDAY! O.o

In other news... I am not pregnant... yup, AF just reared her ugly head on Thanksgiving! :P It is always my luck that she shows up either on a holiday or while on vacation (espeically when the destination involves a bathing suit) Soooo... it is back to the ole drawing board (AGAIN) I called my RE's nurse this morning and now I'm waiting on a call or e-mail back about what our next move is gonna be. Time is running out fast before hubby deploys so we gotta move fast. :( To be honest, I am looking forward to the break. It also wasn't as bad as I thought it was gonna be emotionally. I don't know if its because of all the excitement that was going on with Thanksgiving or what but I am pretty much in a relatively good mood, despite the bad news, and for that I am greatful. It's a roller coaster I tell ya... hopefully this is the "up" part!

The kiddo is back at school today and I am home... all alone... all by myself... ♪ ♫"don't wanna be... all byyyyyyy myself..."♪ ♫ oops LOL! It was nice seeing her not be as eager to go off to school this morning... don't get me wrong, I mean... I like that she goes but it was nice knowing she rather spend the time with mommy :) Mission accomplished! We did do some pretty awesome stuff this week! One of which was playing with salt dough! Super easy to make and waaaaaay cheaper than buying clay! Also safe around other children or pets who might eat it by accident! You just take 2 cups of flour, 2 cups of salt and 1 cup of water and mix in a big bowl. You can add a little water here and there if you need to, depending on the kind of texture you want. Then knead it for a while till it becomes the consistency of "play dough". Shape into whatever you want and then put it on a pan and bake it in the oven at 250 degrees for a few hours (more hours if its a huge item). We made Christmas ornaments this time out of the dough. A snowman, a butterfly and a cupcake. The kiddo shaped them and then we baked them for a few hours and then we painted them together.

I think they turned out awesome, if I do say so myself! ;)

A Toothless Thanksgiving!

My little toothless turkey! lol!

Yup, baby girl lost her first tooth! On Thankgiving! I know what you all are thinking... "how dry was my turkey?!" LOL! But she actually lost it even before the turkey went in the oven :) She was just sitting on her poppa's (Grandpa- hubby's dad) lap saying "look poppa, it's really wiggly!" and the next thing I know... out it came! She was so surprised, she didn't even cry or get weirded out when she saw the blood!


We had a great Thanksgiving this year! And I had a lot to be thankful for! The munchkin is thankful that he tooth is gone and that the tooth fairy came! In fact she cometh last night! Apparently little miss tooth fairy had some trouble at the ATM... apparently the ATM doesn't give her cash in increments of $5.00 bills either! So the munchkin ended up with $10.00! Haha! It was well worth it though, when her eye balls nearly exploded at the $10.00 bill she saw hanging on her door this morning! She took it out of her fairy pouch and unfolded it and proclaimed... "I'm RICH!". It's the little thing's ya know?

Yeah, she's gonna play for the Pittsburgh Steelers some day ;)

We also had some special visitors this year for Thanksgiving... two really nice guys that hubby works with and two airman students who are here at Keesler for their tech school and about 2 weeks out of basic! They were very kind and must have thanked me a billion times for everything, but the pleasure was all mine... I love having lots of people to cook for and opening the house up to people when they are too far from their family to go see them for Thanksgiving or to people who might have no where else to go... I can't bare the thought of some one having to eat at the chow hall on a holiday espeically like Thanksgiving! So if I can save a someone or two from that, by golly I will!

We made Turkey and all the fixings we made pies and carrot cake, we watched the game and played a little pig skin of our own in the backyard with the kids, all in all it was great! I hope you all had a great Thanksgiving too! :)

The kiddo and two of her bestest friends... at their own little table :)

And the rest of our bunch :)

Why I wont test...

To be honest it's because I'm scared I'll fail it. You wouldn't think a test so simple as this could be so scary... no I'm not talking about my college algebra test... I'm talking about a stupid pregnancy test. Yes, I am scared to death that I will take it and still only get one pink line. I know what you are thinking... "at least you'll know". I think at this point... I'd rather not know... I just can't take the hurt and disappointment, not this close to the holidays. I am officially 14 days late and for the past two weeks I've been feeling "off" but I am not paying much attention to it, because I've felt like this before and its always been not a big deal. Still I can't help feeling weird, and I can't ignore that am no longer able to sleep on my stomach because it feels like I'm sleeping on a golf ball. My side hurts, yeah, that spot right near your ovary and it worries me, and still I canot bring myself to do anything about it. I keep waiting, waiting to get my period, waiting to get the courage and balls to just take the stupid test, waiting for the sky to fall, or the bottom to fall out... I dunno which, but I know its coming... it always does. I guess another reason I'm putting it off is because I'm scared to death that this will be the last month trying with meds. I don't want to be cut open and put on display for the sake of "trying to find out what's going on" -- yeah, that's what they call it when the pills they give you don't work and they still can't find out what's going on with your babymaker. They cleverly disguise it as a "laparoscopy". If it were up to me (just the silly ole patient and her body) I would just continue with the meds and injections till January. Put myself on BC (to control my heavy periods) for 6-7 months while the hubby will be deployed, and then test it after he comes back for a month. If all that fails... then we opt for surgery. But what do I know? I'm just the patient, I'm just the girl who longs desperately for a baby. I am just the wife who can't give her husband what he wants the most. Hope is definitely getting sparse around here, that is what I do know. :( What would you do if you were in my shoes?

P.S.

I hate blogging about such negative things, but this is my life and this is what is currently going on with me... I just have to get this off my chest...

Gearing up for Turkey Day!

It's Saturday!!! Sorry I've been lagging in blogging lately... just trying to get it all done in time. We've been busy with Girl Scouts, signing up for my online college classes! (Woohoo!) and running around getting things ready for Thanksgiving! We are going to have a full house for Thanksgiving this year! And I am gonna LOVE it! So far the guest list is as follows; My hubby, My Father-In-Law, My daughter, Me, Tre Airman (we are being "home away from home" sponsers again this year) and for those of you who don't know what that is... you can sign up with the base and sponser Airman to come over and eat a meal with you for the holiday, its a great way to show thanks and give them what they are probably missing most at this time of the year... their family. We did it last year and the girls that we had come over thanked hubby and I personally so much, one even cried because she had never been without her family before during a holiday so that year was especially hard on her. I was thankful that I could ease her heartache just a little. :) And we will have 2 of hubby's friends from work coming over also! So... like I said... a whole house full! So until then, I might be MIA for a few days... getting the house in ship shape and grocery shopping the day way. :)

Milspouse Friday Fill-In

1. Freedom is is never free... it will always come with a price. Sometimes a life, sometimes a scar, but it is a price a very brave person pays. And anyone who feels other wise can feel free to take their place on the front lines!

2. Veterans are taken for granted, mistaken, or disrespected. Which should be a crime. These men and women wrote a blank check to The United States of American in the amount up to their lives and that deserves respect.

3. This country is is a great country, that is why my hubby, my brother-in-law, my daddy, my father in law and my grandfather chose to fight for it. There is no place I'd rather live than the good ole US of A!

4. Veteran’s Day means a time for me to be thankful for my veterans, a time for me to reflect on those that gave their all.

5. A hero is is my husband, he will always be my hero no matter what. :)

Happy Veteran's Day! And to all my Millie Wive Friends... hug your husband today and thank him for his service and sacrifice for me :)

Book Review: Who Do, Voodoo? By: Rochelle Staab

When Liz Cooper's friend Robin Bloom finds an unusual tarot card tacked to her front door, Liz writes it off as a prank. Robin refuses to ignore the omen her late husband drew the same card, the Three of Swords, in a reading the night before he was killed in car accident. As more cards and darker threats appear, Liz realizes someone very dangerous is upping the ante...

Liz turns to her brother's ex college roommate, occult expert Nick Garfield. As Nick leads her into the voodoo community to locate the origin of the deck, she can't ignore their attraction to each other. Then, a woman is found murdered and Robin becomes the prime suspect. Determined to clear her friend, Liz teams with Nick to unravel otherworldly secrets and seek help from beyond or risk being outwitted by a cunning killer...

Really awesome cozy mystery! And great for a first in a series! The book had me really guessing who the killer might be all the way till the end! I love the all the characters in the book and the witty charm of Dr. Liz Cooper! I also can't wait to see what the tarot cards hold in store for her and, one smoldering hot professor! All in all I am very intrigued by this series and I can't wait to see what Rochelle Staab will cook up next for us in her mysterious realm of magik!

Book Review: Tempest in the Tea Leaves by: Kari Lee Townsend

Tempest in the Tea Leaves: A Fortune Teller Mystery

In the fortune telling business there are a lot of pretenders, but Sunshine Meadows is the real deal-and her predictions can be lethally accurate... Leaving the Big Apple for a quaint town of Divinity, New York, Sunny is determined to make it on her own as a psychic. With an ancient Victorian house as her place of business, Sunny uses various psychic methods to aid the town's residents. But when she uses tea leaves to give a reading for a frazzled librarian, what she finds at the bottom of the cup is anything but helpful. Sunny informs the police of her deadly vision, but her warning is too late. And with hard-nose, ruggedly handsome Detective Mitch Stone denying her abilities and naming her prime suspect, the situation is dire. Now Sunny has to use her visions to clear her name, before the killer can put an end to the psychic's future...

Not too bad for a "First in a new series"... It wasn't one of my favorites but it was by far the most quirkiest mysteries I've read! I like the characters in the sweet little town of Divinity. I LOVE the chemistry between Sunny & Detective Stone, and I'm very interested in where that relationship might lead. Sunny can be a bit impulsive, eccentric and bit neurotic... but she does have spunk, pizazz and a genuinely good heart. The only part I didn't like was toward the end... I felt sort of like I was being led on a wild goose chase, when trying to figure out the killer. I sort of had my superstitions who the killer was about half way into the book but still wanted to get to the bottom of it for sure. It did keep my interest most of the time but, would I read it again? Probably not... Ironically I'll probably be reading the library's copy of the next book in the series.

Catching Up! Woah!

Wow! I just realized how long its been since I posted anything! Woah! Sorry... LOL! We've been a little busy... So let's see... Halloween was really great! The night before Halloween, we went down town in Biloxi and did trick-or-treating in the park by the Hard Rock casino it was awesome. We ended up going with a friend of hubby's and his kids. The kids got lots of candy and participated in a costume contest, that munchkin should have won... but don't get me started... that's a whole other post LOL! The night of Halloween we went trick-or-treating in the housing on base (its bigger, therefor more candy) and after all... Halloween is all about the CANDY! Munchkin went as Spider-Girl! And she rocked her costume this year as well! She even got her picture taken with the hooters girls that were all dressed up. It's our family tradition to go eat wings at hooters on Halloween. We've been doing it since the munchkin had her very first Halloween! Wanna see the pics? Ok!

Isn't she just A-dorable!

Hello Kitty & Nicki Minaj were her favorites!

I also had to go to the fert doctor in Mobile, AL on Halloween as well... I had my ultrasound after have taken 8 days worth of Femera again and this time the ultrasound only revealed one "pumpkin" (not baby... potential egg) But... it was a really, great, BIG one! 25mm! That is the idea size for fertilization! Now... wither it has become fertilized or not I do not know yet... yes, once again I am in my two week wait... and it never gets any easier! I should know by next week though. I hope to god it work this time! I DO NOT want to go for surgery next month... yes, that is what they have decided to do since they can't figure out why I am not pregnant by now... :(
And believe me... I will do just about anything to avoid surgery!

This weekend has been busy since last Thursday! We had friends from our last duty station in Georgia come to visit and spend some time with us, they are in the process of PCS'ing to Texas and since we were on the way to Texas they thought it would be nice to stop and see us! We had a great time just hanging out and being together again. This week for me is probably going to be just as busy... since I'll be getting ready for the big Turkey Day! We will be having potluck Turkey dinner at the hubby's squadron next week and I am bringing the pies! Oh my!
We are also signing up for "home away from home" again this year... its where you get a few airman that are still in tech school and have no way of getting home to see their families for the holiday... so we take them in and become their temporary family for Thanksgiving. I love it! When we did it last year, we had such a good time and it felt really good opening up our house to people who can't be with their families... no one should be alone on the holidays. Besides... I love cooking for lots of people! So if, I go AWOL again on here... its because I am out trying to catch tom turkey! LOL! So for now... peace, love and Turkey grease! :)